Why is that the things that you want to do in life don't pay and those that do, suck?
I read somewhere that the western civilisation sees time linearly and the eastern one perceives it as circular. That may explain why everything in my life seems to go on in circles. The same sort of lessons are proffered time and again, in different forms. It's as if the entire lifecycle is about trying to evolve as the human version of the Pokemon, by fighting the same types of battles again and again till you rise above it all.
When I was in school, I had a choice to make between taking subjects that didn't seem to align with what I liked, but did seem to align with what supposedly could give me a good career. Of course I took the road that would pay me more later on, without really being what I liked. It was a small act of selling soul, that I didn't realise I was doing at that time. But most people don't realise it anyways, at least at that moment.
Now, at a much later stage, the same dilemma has come to haunt me, in a different form, in a different way. And I find that the cycle of making this choice would keep on repeating itself, till I make that right choice. But what is 'that' choice?
Writing, Adventure-learning, social work - that's the three sides of the triangle that I want to spend my life in. If I had to make another such triangle, then Family, Body building, spirituality would comprise another triangle. Superimposing these triangles would give me that something, some sort of a sturucture to the otherwise meaninglessness, of the random coincidence of the world forming itself out of the big bang.
The circular argument can be defeated only with the clarity that I have had in the past few years. I have realised that the hardest thing that you can do is to labour at something in which you have absolutely no interest. When does work have meaning, when does working hard seem like a good thing to do?
Simple. When you work in the direction of your life goals or the things that mean the most to you. What means most to you isn't certainly going to be sloggging in a bank, sadly. And yet, the one job that fits the best with what I want in my life (goals of triangle upon triangle ) hasn't really shown itself clearly.
On the positive side, I do know what I don't want. Let's see where we go from here!
I read somewhere that the western civilisation sees time linearly and the eastern one perceives it as circular. That may explain why everything in my life seems to go on in circles. The same sort of lessons are proffered time and again, in different forms. It's as if the entire lifecycle is about trying to evolve as the human version of the Pokemon, by fighting the same types of battles again and again till you rise above it all.
When I was in school, I had a choice to make between taking subjects that didn't seem to align with what I liked, but did seem to align with what supposedly could give me a good career. Of course I took the road that would pay me more later on, without really being what I liked. It was a small act of selling soul, that I didn't realise I was doing at that time. But most people don't realise it anyways, at least at that moment.
Now, at a much later stage, the same dilemma has come to haunt me, in a different form, in a different way. And I find that the cycle of making this choice would keep on repeating itself, till I make that right choice. But what is 'that' choice?
Writing, Adventure-learning, social work - that's the three sides of the triangle that I want to spend my life in. If I had to make another such triangle, then Family, Body building, spirituality would comprise another triangle. Superimposing these triangles would give me that something, some sort of a sturucture to the otherwise meaninglessness, of the random coincidence of the world forming itself out of the big bang.
The circular argument can be defeated only with the clarity that I have had in the past few years. I have realised that the hardest thing that you can do is to labour at something in which you have absolutely no interest. When does work have meaning, when does working hard seem like a good thing to do?
Simple. When you work in the direction of your life goals or the things that mean the most to you. What means most to you isn't certainly going to be sloggging in a bank, sadly. And yet, the one job that fits the best with what I want in my life (goals of triangle upon triangle ) hasn't really shown itself clearly.
On the positive side, I do know what I don't want. Let's see where we go from here!
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